I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through difficult times alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you or someone you know is struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please reach out for help immediately. In the United States, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). The lifeline is available 24/7 and provides free and confidential support for people in distress.
Remember, seeking help is a sign of strength, and there are resources available to assist you in finding healthier and more positive ways to cope with what you're going through. Please take care.