I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone. Reach out to someone you trust and let them know what you're experiencing.
If you're in immediate danger or need urgent support, please consider contacting a helpline or emergency services in your country. Remember that there are people out there who care about you and want to help.