I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help.
If you're in the United States and need to talk to someone immediately, you can reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). It's free, confidential, and available 24/7.
Please take care and talk to someone who can provide the support you need. Your feelings are valid, and it's essential to reach out for help during difficult times.