I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in the United States and in need of immediate help, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or visit their website at suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
Please take care of yourself and reach out to someone who can offer the support and guidance you need during this challenging time.