I am not a person and do not have personal experiences or feelings. However, I can provide some general information about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and the experience of splitting.
In individuals with BPD, "splitting" is a defense mechanism that can lead to extreme shifts in their perception of others or themselves as either all good or all bad. During a "split," a person may idealize someone, seeing them as perfect or all-good, or they may devalue them, perceiving them as completely negative or all-bad. This can happen in the context of relationships, where the person with BPD may alternate between feelings of intense love and admiration to feelings of anger and hatred towards the same individual.
When someone with BPD is in the midst of splitting, they may indeed make paranoid accusations and believe strongly in their perceptions at that moment. However, when the intense emotional state subsides, they may realize that their thoughts and feelings were influenced by the splitting, and they may come to see the situation or the person in a more balanced and realistic light.
It's important to note that BPD is a complex and challenging mental health condition, and individuals with BPD can have different experiences and coping mechanisms. Therapy, such as dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), can be helpful for individuals with BPD to understand and manage their emotions, including those related to splitting and paranoia.
If you or someone you know is struggling with BPD or other mental health issues, seeking professional help from a mental health provider is essential to receive proper evaluation, diagnosis, and treatment.