I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life.
Please consider reaching out to a mental health helpline or crisis support. In many countries, there are hotlines and services available where you can speak with trained professionals who can offer support and guidance.
Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who want to help you. Don't hesitate to reach out to them.