Feeling bothered by a messy or disorganized environment and having a strong desire to keep things clean and orderly does not necessarily indicate a disorder in itself. Many people have preferences for cleanliness and organization, and it's a common personality trait.
However, if your need for cleanliness and order becomes so excessive and time-consuming that it interferes significantly with your daily life, causes distress, or impacts your ability to function in a normal way, it could be a sign of a more specific condition called Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
OCD is characterized by intrusive thoughts (obsessions) that create anxiety and lead to repetitive behaviors (compulsions) aimed at reducing that anxiety. While you mentioned not having rituals, some people with OCD may have cleaning or organizing compulsions as a way to manage their anxiety about cleanliness and order.
If your concerns about cleanliness are causing significant distress or impairing your ability to enjoy life or carry out everyday activities, it may be beneficial to consult a mental health professional. They can conduct a thorough assessment and determine if your symptoms meet the criteria for OCD or if there might be other factors contributing to your feelings about cleanliness.
Remember that seeking help from a mental health professional does not mean you have a disorder; it simply means you are taking care of your well-being and exploring healthy ways to manage any challenges you may be facing. They can provide appropriate guidance, support, and, if necessary, recommend treatment options to help you find a balance that allows you to live comfortably with your preferences for cleanliness and organization.