I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times. Don't hesitate to reach out to them.
If you're in the United States and in crisis, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) for free and confidential support.