I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you're struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please reach out to a helpline or a mental health professional immediately. In many countries, there are hotlines available where you can talk to someone who can provide understanding and support. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone. There are people who can help you navigate through your feelings and challenges.