I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone. Reach out to someone you trust, and let them know what you're going through. They can offer support and help you find the appropriate resources to cope with these feelings.
If you ever feel overwhelmed or in immediate danger, please don't hesitate to call emergency services or a helpline in your country. There are people who care about you and want to help. Take care.