I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's essential to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you, even if it might not feel that way right now.
If you're in the United States, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) for free and confidential support 24/7. They can provide resources and a listening ear to help you through this difficult time.
Please consider reaching out to someone for support. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who can help you find hope and purpose again. Your life is valuable, and you deserve to receive the help and care you need.