I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there are people who care about you and want to support you through difficult times.
If you are in the United States and in need of immediate help, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or visit their website at suicidepreventionlifeline.org for online chat support.
If you are in another country, please seek out a helpline or support organization that serves your area. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there are resources available to help you.